小时候常听说狼来了的故事

骗久了就会习惯了

我习惯了

你应该知道我对你说的话全都当真

就算有时候被你耍也笑笑带过

算了

我会好好顾好自己

除了我的理想

还有至亲的人

其他的

就take it easy吧

认真只会让自己难受

那又何必呢？

I think

after so many years

so many things I have been through

I don't care who you are

who you used to be in my life

now it's my life

without you

nothing influence on me

I am still the proud girl you knew

I am still proud.

Slowly

I put you down

I live a life

without under your shadow...

突然觉得自己好幸福

当我可以看见你的笑容

只有我才看得见的

专属笑容

^^

就是在说你

笨蛋～

Do I have anyone by my side

whom I can share everything

whom I do not scare of telling anything

who do really care about me

when it comes to this?

It's heavy.

I know I'm gonna be alright.

Again

I'm all alone here.

I will be alright.

It's like

I am too weak to against any virus

what happened to me?

Another lump discover on my body

Am I dying?

It's been 4 months but I feel like we've been together more than that.

4 months.

It's a, difficult yet meaningful one.

Another man live in my life, I never let anyone get so close to me.

We go out together, eat together, walk together, have fun together...

I wish to meet him everyday, I miss him even if he is so near to me.

But things do not go on so smooth.

No one does.

It's good.

We are walking towards another stage.

But our temper is not good,

I worry.

Stay cool and calm.

Life is so fragile

I promise I will never ever think of committing suicide

I will let it end

by itself...

It's dirty

It's messy

It's totally out of control

It's the truth hide behind a beautiful curtain

It looks so healthy but yeah everyone does it

It hides so well that you thought everything is just like what you see

It's wild

No grace no elegant

The ugly truth

You can't deny

I do not hate to be alone

I hate that when I alone I have nothing to do to spend the time

I do not hate UTAR

because that is it

And you are the one who suppose change

Seriously

It's not problem of the marking system

the fact is

I am not clever enough

突然发现十四个星期其实过得好快

尤其是我选择的时间表让学期过得更快

记得和黄女人说过

新的学期开始

我们都不准再继续颓废下去了

无论是在保养或课业上都不准怠慢

我要习惯没有他的日子

因为在努力读书时要克制想见他的冲动

在饿到快死掉时得自己找东西吃

下雨时要自己冒雨回家因为和陈女人有难同当

很难过时就抱着自己的脚偷偷哭泣

哭够了就继续原本的生活

因为以后还是要靠自己

一旦习惯了依赖就很难改回来

我的小姐脾气又会再犯了

其实这个世界很公平

你付出多少就得到多少

你不懂的东西就会一直经历直到你懂

别人走得比你快因为他付出比你多只是你看不到

他懂了一些自己人生中重要的事情而你还在迷糊着

你不努力没有人可以帮你

把人生的线拉长来看最后能帮你的人只有自己

如果自己不自救没有能够拉你一把

其实我也很想让自己的生活all about fashion

make up trendy dress再加一个体贴疼我的男友

but I know I can do it better, I can do more.

我也想继续任性撒娇假装不懂事有事就让dardar摆平反正在这方面他比我强

但这样我的他会很累

dardar知道我很需要保护

但我也努力着好好保护自己

我的确是个过马路要人牵的女生

我容易害怕

或许那是因为从小就没得到什么安全感

因为从小到大就没什么安全感

所以很aggresive很怕做错事所以总是做错事

不过

从小到大

虽然一直失败

但心中的那份自信从来没少过

我可以预见以后会面临什么抉择

但那是以后的事

我对我现在所拥有的所做的和将要做的都愿意负起责任

不会逃避

我会很勇敢的

不去管旁人的眼光

就像我刚认识的那位很有才华很潇洒很有性格的女生

不管曾经自己被什么打败了

彻彻底底地打败了而变成了今天的我

我都很努力地去克服

就算没有人愿意相信我

我还是坚信着

如果我有孩子

我会小心的抚养他长大

健康的长大

不管是身体或心灵上

过去所发生的已无法改变那我们就向前看

过去的我很骄傲的以为自己应该和那些很出色的朋友一样站在最front

现在依然这么认为自己是特别的

只是这次是很谦虚的因为要学的实在是太多了

一定能达到自己想要的

在我生命结束之前

我一定会幸福快乐的过下去

记不记得你最后一次

认真的看着我的眼睛？

很久了

对吧