When it is time, you will let it go. Well it is not a matter of ‘how to’ because it can’t force. It happens naturally. It doesn’t disobey your heart and feeling. So when it is time, just go with the flow.
And now it is time to put the spotlight back on me.
Nothing is worth to mention, life is as plain as water, in spite of the super bitter medicine that makes me vomit.
I always have some friends, who really influence me a lot, whenever I feel like I have no strength to go on, then I’ll go and surf them, look at them, and I can find my faith back. They are just awesome!
By the way, I’m preparing an essay which is titled as ‘Youth Unemployment--How can you tackle youth unemployment through youth-led solutions?’ What the hell, I don’t know what it is. I still have one month left to complete it.
Sometimes I just find myself so weak that I don’t really recognize. Sometimes I just feel that’s nothing wrong and I’m just ease with it. Sometimes I just want to eat as much as I can but still I have to control it. Sometimes you can just quit just leave as long as you have enough courage to face the coming problem, but when you have decided, there is nothing worth to worry about. Before it I think happy in life is the most important thing in life, it doesn’t matter if the bread is thinner a little bit, now I still think happy in the life you are living now is really important. At least when you accidentally leave this world tomorrow, you will not regret with your yesterday.
Recently my friend changed her relationship status as Single. And that is normal enough that even if you are in a relationship, you will prefer to keep it as single there because that is none of others’ business. But what I wanna point out is, I don’t understand why whenever whoever change their r status to single, especially if that one is a girl, people will say ‘be strong, girl.’ It makes me feel like they thought us girls are too weak to whatever. blak~
Come back to me, yea I found that I’m just Gemini. I get bored with my current job and I don’t even full one month there at that moment. I hate to do the same thing everyday. Repeat and repeat like I’m a working machine. It’s so hard to be patient to some kids. And since I started working, I fell sick three times. I can’t do thing without passion, it will kill me.
I want meat! Time to do my regular blood test and doctor asked if I could cut off eating meat. I nodded without second thought. Well life without meat is…… ok, I have oatmeal without sugar as my breakfast (feel like chewing candle), vegetable with little rice as lunch in my work place (which I told them I don’t want any single meat), back home have dinner, which mummy always makes it mild. I miss burger.
Chinese New Year is coming soon. The festival which I hate the most.
童年經驗受傷害，心靈黑洞太沉重
童年時你受到非常大的傷害，
可能是肢體上或言語上、情緒上的暴力。
這些訊息會讓你覺得自己是個不被疼愛的人。
如果那個童年經驗沒有被處理好，
長大後不管你面對工作夥伴、情人還是所在環境，
你的不安全感都會非常強烈，
於是你的心靈黑洞就會非常沉重。
雖然在外人面前你表現出很開心的樣子，
可是當你面對自己的時候，
你感受到的是非常孤單跟寂寞。
建議你回想一下，童年時期你最渴望別人重視你的部分是什麼？
把那一塊找回來，長大之後跟對方講清楚說明白，這是重新再回溯中很重要的過程。
I hate accurate test.
Don’t expect a stupid simple test can read my world.
Rubbish.
Ok, I was so emo and down just now.
Then, like usual, I’ll read my friends’ blogs whenever I free.
Ok, it worth to mention becoz it makes me LOL…
In a very unstable state.
And it does warm me up lil bit.
Thanks god.
For your 黑色幽默。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
Ehem.
Has anybody ever said something to you that cold enough to make you shivering or even strength-less?
And do you know the important of same frequency?
Finally I understand.
I got some friends with same frequency or what’s more accurate, tolerant.
They accept the way I am, they know the way I am and they understand.
They never try to turn me into another kind of girl.
It’s so comfortable when we are together.
I love them.
It’s blessed of having such friends.
There are some friends,
Always be there for you whenever you need them.
So caring, so understanding.
They will not say, ‘oh girl, you just think too much.’
And when they say so, I’ll accept.
I’m blessed for having such friends.
But I am hurt.
And I’m just so lazy to talk,
And I just don’t wanna disturb them for some stupid problems.
Though they don’t mind.
So, I’m always hurt secretly,
If you don’t ask, you will not know.
But again,
There are always some friends,
Know that there is something wrong with you.
I’m blessed of having such friends.
Life is quite fair.
You can’t blame.
And,
I feel hurt now.
Thank you for listening.
如果我不伤害别人，别人还是会来伤害我的。
在2009年结束的前两晚，我的朋友终于告诉了我，
为什么我和daddy会变成这样。
她说，我们变成这样，很可惜。
全班都在看着事情的演变，但却没人告诉我事情的真相。
我以为是我不好，原来是有人陷害。
你怎么可以这样？
我们是同桌，也是同校，还同班了近七年，
你竟然为了一个不是很熟的朋友，
这样对我？
难道你不知道，
他是因为我的病，才比较关心我的吗？
我的情况，全班都知道啊！
没有那些巧克力，我连站起来都有问题了。
你太过分了。
ET,
我真的领教了你的厉害，
因为很多人都告诉了我你的为人，
但我还是觉得，你不是那种人。
天啊，我竟然相信你！
你喜欢他，就向他表白啊！
关我什么事哩！
我不知道你到底对他说了什么。
但你的目的达成了，
恭喜你。
原来，
不是每个人会把友情放在第一位。
还有你，
过去的都已成为过去，
放下了，才能向前看嘛。
而我怎么努力，
也无法让你放下你的过去。
我是说过，
对我来说，过去的已经过去，
能删的删，能丢的丢。
但我没说，我会忘记啊！
很复杂，我不想再去多想什么了。
我很累了，很空。
没有能力再付出些什么。
但我的promise,我会做到。
希望，到时候又是一个新的开始。
我竟然可以这
允许自己继续堕落
我竟然可以这样
让时间渐渐的打压却从不反抗
我竟然可以这样
任由自己继续软弱
我竟然可以这样
不爱惜自己
我竟然可以这样
让自己这么委屈
何必呢
我不要成为这样的女生。
对不起 我没错