依然想念

但也开始适应了没有他在身边的日子

这几天

但如果我能舒适的呆在自己的家

那就更好了～

还好啦～

还可以啦～

就是这样咯。。。

come back~

回来～

快点回来

好不好？

我曾经梦见过你

梦里

你在我床边

我们

好像

吵架

但

那时

梦醒时

我是很抗拒的

因为

当时觉得

不可能

所以

在很久很久以前

我已经预见

我们会在一起

时间到了

所以

我们也终于在一起了

有时候无意间想起他的一举一动

总会笑出来

他的孩子气

总会让人会心一笑

难怪星座会说

两个双子在一起

就像两个小孩子在玩游戏

我真希望我们的第一百天是一起度过的。

真希望他会在身边。

就算不在，

声音或感觉应该在吧。

但什么都没有。

不知道为什么一整天都很失落。

算了

一定又是我的小姐脾气在作祟。

但我真的真的很不开心。

失落。。。

我很想你

终于明白为什么我家女人会想得哭了

你也一样想我吗？

我也会吃醋

就算那是过去的事

但你有你的自由

我不能干涉太多

有时候我觉得你不懂

你不懂你在我心中的位置

有时候我也不懂你

有时候我想为你做些什么

但发现我什么都不会呀

对不起

我是你的大小姐

^^

我想，

我从没这么相信过一个男生。

谢谢你的诚实。

谢谢你的真诚。

我不配过得快乐吗？

我不配得到幸福吗？

我不配吗？

I deserve it.

I deserve all the attack.

I deserve all the hate and the pain.

I deserve to take it all alone.

I deserve it.

This is a realistic world.

I need money from you,

just like you want to see my performance.

You can't give me anything else,

other than money,

like I expect nothing on you,

other than money.

Love?

Joke!

I am your investment.

I will try to make your investment not to be wasted again.

Listen,

I am your investment,

you give me money,

and I try to give you higher output.

I am just an investment.

(Think this way makes me better. Don't judge before you got the whole story)

If you all think that studies is more important than my life,

then go ahead.

If I die today, will you regret of what you said yesterday?

Do you think I feel nothing?

Yea you hate me you give up on me,

go ahead.

Seriously I need your financial support,

'coz I can't survive by my own now.

I can support myself,mentally and physically,

though it will be very hard.

But now, i support myself mentally all alone,

without your part.

It's never been.

Never.

I hate, I jealous,

for those who have a family who concern their heart more than performance,

and I am meant to be given up because my performance is bad.

So many things to consider now still I have to stand still to withstand your attack.

Yea I deserve it,

because I am not meant to get happiness from family,

I am not born to have a warm family.

Maybe it never will.

I hate you

but I need your money.

So sarcastic.

Dar,
It's gonna be a new sem for me.
I have to put more effort on my studies and my future 'career', rather be a so-called dream.
I worry that I might neglect you.
I am sorry if I do so.
But I promise I won't.
I'll try~
Dar,
both of us have to work harder,
no pain no gain, this is what I trust.
I love you~

Haunted

I do not hate you

but your influence on me leave me behind since then

We do not alike do we?

Go you go

but I believe what comes around goes around

I hope in my life

you will never appear again

No I do not hate you

but you haunted me for so long

I don not know the me is still me or your shadow

So I have to delete you in my life

Really

I do not hate you.

Stop comparing then only you can find yourself back.

You don't care them, then you won't be affected by them...

I am gonna disappear again...

I like to compare, somehow,

he is better than me,

she is greater than me,

you are better than me,

so in the end,

everybody is better than me,

and I am the worst???

It makes me feel bad 'coz I'm not one of the best...

It does matter to me,

since 1997,

since I was one of the apples,

since I started to stand in front of people and speak as loud as I can...

I know what,

something inside keep pulling me back,

and then slowly I become a retard,

and now who I am.

Put them down,

let them go,

and then, forget.

Give myself a new...........start?

I don't know wor~

I sweat when i can't answer the question which I can answer just yesterday!

Serious! I was cry and too anxious!

So it means I'll have to retake 2 subjects???

Rm9oo wor~What's more extend sem~

Arrgghhh~

How can I get money without letting my parents know it???

Kill me then~

很感动啊

哥哥昨天很凶 今天有安慰我

妈妈刚打来说不管多贵还是要去医院检查眼睛

我最坏了

但有点小小的安慰

I hate u

I hate u

I hate u

I hate u

I hate u

I hate u

I hate u

I hate u

I HATE YOU
ELAYNE

Hungry...

I really can't afford to fail any subjects

or I'll have to starve for one sem...

OMG~

Starve for one week has already killed me

I can't image how could I survive for one sem????

Arrgghh~

I am so hungry now~~

I feel like vomit~

Feel like going gastric~

I have no strength~

I am tired~

Guess my health would never recover~

And I feel like crying~

P/S: I don't have to skip any meals for the reason of slimming down.

I am only 43 kg now~