Dare To Dream, Do You?

Ok.. yesterday, I read a book, ‘Dare To Dream… Then Do It!’ This book encourages me a lot whenever I feel what I wanna do is impossible.. “Safe living leads to regret later on in life.” Wow.. That’s why I love adventure, of course not risking life, haha.. In my future plan, I think of backpacking, which I love the most.. probably go alone.. See nowadays women go travel in solo, hope I can do it too.. Then, also wanna go third world country, be a volunteer there.. So far, I’m not sure what I can do for them, of course me alone cant do anything,haha.. Look at them, and found how lucky we are.. There are so many things which I haven’t done, don’t understand why I think of committing suicide before.. haha… “Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and, above all, confidence in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted for something, and that this thing, at whatever cost, must be attained.” From Marie Curie.. Have a good day! ^^

这几天。。。

刚睡醒。。这几天过得很漫长，都是睡睡醒醒的。。突然变得很嗜睡。。睡到一半会惊醒，心里会喊：不能睡呀！考试！然后就一边打哈欠，一边翻着书，通常这种情况下都是读不用思考的，哈哈！刚才睡醒时经过镜子，发现自己很‘丧尸’。。脸色苍白加上黑眼圈加上红红的嘴唇，不对，是像vampire才对，哈哈！不行啊，考完试得好好补救，不能这样子出去吓朋友。。突然觉得很冷，非常的冷，有点鼻塞。。突然想起我的化学老师，生病了，不知道她还好吗？我很感激她。。“this jia hwee huh，you have to xxxxxxxxx” “these days many ppl fall sick, those who get cold or flu pls don’t come sch, for those who has low immune system you should wear a mask..jia hwee do you prepare a mask?” “no,teacher..” “eng ee do you have?” eng ee also don’t prepare.. “these two girls huh,xxxxxxxxxxxx” 哈哈，老师是蛮会nag的啦，但都是为我们好。。结果隔天就乖乖戴口罩上学，搞得我很难呼吸，哈哈！看到老师病的好像很严重，有点心疼。。隔一天，也就是放假的前一天，老师竟然请假。我们常想着：老师如果没来，多好啊！但老师是很少很少请假的。那天没来，我想同学们看起来没两样，心里一定也担心着老师吧！上了中六，我才知道，“好老师”，原来是这样当得。好老师，会让人有种“为他努力”的动力。。老师，你还好吗？

so..last post for you..

i dare not sms you..dare not call.. you must hate me now, dont you? my friends think you are not love me..long distance relationship doesnt last.. i just wanna say, "sorry for loving you.." my love is a pain on you..knowing you, is a luck for me..best wishes..

speak, or not to speak, that's the question..

While in car, talk, or just keep quite?

That day, dad drove me home.. he said, “you hav a license now, you should drive yourself wherever wanna go.. what’s more, we bought you a car..” “I just don’t wanna ruin your car..” “you never drove since you get your license.” “yes, I did. Em.. a few times.. nearly bumped ppl twice..” then, he kept talking and talking.. “dad, you like talking..” no offence, I swear.. “why?” “like, when mum drive me home, we seldom talk, usually turn the radio loud, I enjoy music, she enjoys driving(act not really enjoy, she’s always busy..)” “so, you mean I talk too much?” “em.. this is what you think only..” then, silence, here I turn on radio a littlt bit louder.. I’m sorry..

Another day, waiting for my little bro, in the car, I talked to my mum.. “mum, after stpm, I’d like to……….. how do you think?” silence.. no background music.. “mum..?” silence again.. “mum, I’m talking to you.” A little angry.. “I don’t know what to say, it’s up to you..”she said.. my heart sink.. aih..

It’s funny, dad likes talking, but I seldom talk to him.. but when I approach to mum, no respond.. hahaha.. kind of joke.. so, maybe just keep quite is a better way to avoid any unnecessary misunderstanding.. haha

Dream.. when I was young..

Dream,when I was young…

When I was very young.. one day, mummy asked, “wanna learn piano?” “no..” “why?” “I scare..” then, she asked again, “how bout ballet?” “no..” “why?” “I scare..”

Years later, “I think you better quit dancing!” “why? “UPSR is coming soon.” “no, mum, the show is coming, I don’t wanna miss this chance!” “Just leave it, don’t you wanna enter a better sch later?” “no,pls..” “no, you must quit..”

Then, years later again.. “mum, I wanna learn violin..” “why suddenly you wanna learn it?” “see, I don’t dance now..” “no.. PMR is coming soon..” “pls! I promise, I wont neglect my studies..” “……” “let me try, pls..” “ok..” Months later.. “you promised me you will maintain the result!” “I’m sorry.. sth happened, not b’coz of violin..” “is it? I don’t think so..” “mummy, pls.. u know I love dancing and music the most..” “no, for your future, quit it.”

Again and again, the girl was forced to give up her favourite things.. for the so-called “future”.. in her heart, her desire in dancing and music has never stopped.. but, she can never turn back.. is she defeated by reality? Will her dream be fulfilled one day coming? No one can answer this, even herself.. a little bit of “yi han” in her heart.. growing day by day…

I’m never a maths-and-science girl.. instead, I’m a little bit tend to art-and-literature kind.. against the nature of oneself, it’s kind of hard.. but I’ll keep trying.. This time, I’ll never let you down..

p/s: mummy, If I can turn back time, will you let me do what I really like? Having a dancer daughter is never a bad idea ya..

end of story

So this is the end of the story.. happy ending can only be found in the dream.. but, is this the worst thing? No, it does not.. instead, this is a good beginning, the right time to wake up.. it’s the time to see thing clear.. well, maybe it just a joke from god, a wrong shot of cupid.. but it doesn’t matter.. I’ll be alright.. so this is the end.. I’ll disappear from your world, forever.. goodbye..

i am evil

I think I'm such an evil when it comes to love..I didnt want to do it,u know..I'm just love u too much,is it?but I always giving the wrong message..the more I love you,the more i scare to lose you,then,the more I become paranoid..I'm not a good girlfriend..just let go and find a better one,ok?I might be a good friend,but I'm really not a good girlfriend..
so the prince and princess live happily ever after,in their dreams,they are always together..happy ending..rong sheng...

juz let it go...

hours ago,i did the decision for both of us..this is not the first time for me,neither are u..but tis time,im serious..why?why didnt u pick up the phone?why didnt u reply my msg?it wasnt so hard,was it?
boy,i x know wat r u thinking bout..who i am to u?see..ppl say long distance relationship wont last..seems tat we hav failed to break it..3 hours..we r defeated by 3 hours..or we r actually defeated by ourselves?the rain has stopped..maybe we should stop here..we are not the angels for each other..it's a fake shoot..im ok..tis time,let me to do the decision,ok?im not a little kid,u should know it well..