When it comes to ending, new beginning is going to start.

I am kinda regret of my performance for this sem.

I didn't do it well.

I didn't study well.

I scare I might fail again.

I spend a lot.

I forget about my parents.

I nearly forget the big picture,

the faith that keeps me going on.

I thought I was on vacation,

a long long vacation.

Enough,

stop it here.

I change my mindset.

I'm not coming here for a happy university life.

I am here, for my dream, a better tomorrow.

No pain, no gain.

That is the rule.

A better I.

If you want to be a writer,

write!

Remember what you want to be.

Do not lost again~

He said it right

He is currently at Harvard.

I don't know him, he is a friend of my friend.

He said, 'work harder, expect less, then everything will be alright.'

Good, what a work harder and expect less!

All the best for my friend.

And all the best for me as well~

When you focus on the big picture,

the little setback in front of you becomes nothing.

For what can't be solved immediately,

for what that's out of our control,

let it be,

and pray harder.

积极。

I am silly

but this is the rule

ahh

i got it

thanks ya my dear friend and my dear lao po

It was cold but luckily I still have you all...

I am blessed, indeed.

我们都要好好保护自己

Lie

What can I do?

Whatever I said will cause another problem.

I am always a trouble maker.

You make me lie

I swear it

I cannot say the truth

If I want a peace life with you

But why?

I don't understand...

尊重

每一次我看见那个送外卖的uncle, 心中总有一种尊敬的感觉。

他的脚似乎不好，走路一拐一拐的，但他的语气，还有他的行动，都让我感受到他那种不被生活打压的精神。

这让我深深的受感动。

他也许只是个很普通很不起眼的叔叔，

但他的努力，

让我尊敬。

Ok, seriously, this is the place where I wanna be.

I say, SERIOUSLY, I WANT TO BE THERE, soon or later.

Did I tell anyone

I cried

yesterday night?

Yea

There are people out there

willing to listen to me

but I choose to swallow them all

quietly

I think

I already lost the ability of

sharing the pain

Sometimes I just hate to expose my feeling to public

Sometimes I just hate Facebooking

Sometimes I just don't like to let people reach me easily

I hate to let people know what am I doing

And I also hate to know how other people feel

Tell me

Does it really matter?

Ahhh~

Feel like hiding myself again.........

从前 现在 未来

我记得

我们三人 曾经很好很好

过去的画面不断闪过我的脑海

我想念你们

毕业后

我们是否还能像以前一样？

想着想着

发现眼眶湿了

我不想回到过去

但我怀念从前

那些快乐的日子

我怎么也想不到

书贤

这个从form one就朋友到现在的男生

会成为我的男友

那是我生命中

意外中的意外

一直提醒着自己

离目标的日子一步一步接近

但方向却越来越偏离

我讨厌

但我活该

我不想去批评些什么

失落

今天，不知道为什么，当他告诉我，不能陪我吃晚餐时，突然一阵失落。

失落得晃神了。连在练习radio play时都心不在焉的，音调也high不起来。闷闷的。

也许是习惯了吧。

傍晚回家时，自己先去吃了再回家。在外面读书这么久，第一次自己一人在外用餐，感觉很奇怪。很饿了，所以不想等人陪。

哥哥说，要习惯一个人吃饭。

吃完后，特地绕去他的家，再从他每次送我回家的那条小路回家。

没什么，脑海里都是他对着我笑的样子。

习惯是一种毒药，上瘾了很难戒掉。

不可以这样，他不能一直都在我身边的。

他也不过不在一下子，

但我想他。

I am sorry~

Every time I said some words

which I didn't mean it

And when he told me

"I am sad when you say so"

I don't know how to respond

I make him sad

He sad

because of me

because he loves me

truly

deeply

And everytime he asks

''Why do you love me?''

I don't know how to answer

I also don't know how to respond

He cares

because he loves me

truly

deeply

He loves me

I know

When you suddenly wake up from a long long dream

and you wanna go back to the life, the reality

which belong to you

what would you do

to clean the things you messed behind?

Violin vs dream

I am happy when I playing violin with my new friend. I am happy that I can pick up violin again, here, after so many years...

I was once kept my violin together with my dream, my passion in a dark corner, and the memory that my mum stopped my violin lesson and my dream for the so-called stupid future. Maybe, I'll be grateful for her decision when I grow up.

However, this is not what she wants. I suppose to study in a great university, in engineering course, with excellent result, then she or they will be happy and proud of me. Not a dancer daughter or a violinist who struggling for life. Maybe, I'll be grateful for what she did.

Again I make my life and my future a big big U-turn, with such courage, and alone. But I know on the way of pursuing my dream, I am not alone there.

Who I am, here, now? Do I lost myself?

For so many years I spent to find my very own self back, to try to talk to her, to try to figure her out, to try to wake her up, to try to make her stand up again, recover from the fall.

I am not a coward, 我只是暂时迷失了自己， 那个最原始的自己。

P/S: I could be very heartless, but I keep it deep inside, don't wanna let it hurt others.