I was once kept my violin together with my dream, my passion in a dark corner, and the memory that my mum stopped my violin lesson and my dream for the so-called stupid future. Maybe, I'll be grateful for her decision when I grow up.
However, this is not what she wants. I suppose to study in a great university, in engineering course, with excellent result, then she or they will be happy and proud of me. Not a dancer daughter or a violinist who struggling for life. Maybe, I'll be grateful for what she did.
Again I make my life and my future a big big U-turn, with such courage, and alone. But I know on the way of pursuing my dream, I am not alone there.
Who I am, here, now? Do I lost myself?
For so many years I spent to find my very own self back, to try to talk to her, to try to figure her out, to try to wake her up, to try to make her stand up again, recover from the fall.
I am not a coward, 我只是暂时迷失了自己， 那个最原始的自己。
P/S: I could be very heartless, but I keep it deep inside, don't wanna let it hurt others.
