Guess what? I just resign! But I will stay till the end of month. Oh yea, I feel much more release. I just can’t force myself do the thing I hate. Don’t say that I’m just cannot-tahan-suffer. You are not me and you will not know it and you will not understand it. It is just suffocating! But I’m sure you guys who read this will support me.
Ok, I’m going to be jobless, penny-less, and probably useless? Haha… For so long I’ve been asking myself, ‘You just hate it, not happy with it and so much stress. Girl it is holiday please, use this long holiday to learn something new, get some experiences, spend time with something worth, at least you should be happy with what you are doing now, you’ve been stressed for so long, treat yourself well.’
Then after a long consideration and without discuss with any people (actually I did ask some of my friends and they said just leave. Oh I love them.), I told my boss all of a sudden though I promised her I’ll do at least till the end of June and I did believe that I’ll stay till June, but things just turn the other way round. I just never thought of it.
就是这样吗？
我们以为事情会这样发展，
我们总以为会有一个happy ending，
我们总觉得这样是理所当然的。
但事情的改变快得我们来不及反应。
我没放手，
一直没放手。
原来我做不到。
我不知道为什么，
不是我傻，
也不是想不开。
你一定也明白这是为什么吧！
诺言是拿来打破的，
就像呼吸那样简单。
所以我从不相信，
所谓的‘happy ending’。
对不起我不知道什么叫lv，
从来就没真正感受过，
所以别怪我不够lv你。
我真的不懂。
所以，
我一直都活在自己想象的世界里，
我自己对自己说话。
有时候，我会很极端，会很消极，
但不要怪我好吗？
如果你知道我的世界，
你还会觉得我奇怪吗？
如果你知道表面的平静只是假装，
你会讨厌吗？
我知道你讨厌这句话，
我也不喜欢，但，真的，
你不懂的。
谢谢聆听。
