When it is time, you will let it go. Well it is not a matter of ‘how to’ because it can’t force. It happens naturally. It doesn’t disobey your heart and feeling. So when it is time, just go with the flow.
And now it is time to put the spotlight back on me.
I always have some friends, who really influence me a lot, whenever I feel like I have no strength to go on, then I’ll go and surf them, look at them, and I can find my faith back. They are just awesome!
By the way, I’m preparing an essay which is titled as ‘Youth Unemployment--How can you tackle youth unemployment through youth-led solutions?’ What the hell, I don’t know what it is. I still have one month left to complete it.
Sometimes I just find myself so weak that I don’t really recognize. Sometimes I just feel that’s nothing wrong and I’m just ease with it. Sometimes I just want to eat as much as I can but still I have to control it. Sometimes you can just quit just leave as long as you have enough courage to face the coming problem, but when you have decided, there is nothing worth to worry about. Before it I think happy in life is the most important thing in life, it doesn’t matter if the bread is thinner a little bit, now I still think happy in the life you are living now is really important. At least when you accidentally leave this world tomorrow, you will not regret with your yesterday.
I started to live in my own world and I love it. It's all about my very own self.
Recently my friend changed her relationship status as Single. And that is normal enough that even if you are in a relationship, you will prefer to keep it as single there because that is none of others’ business. But what I wanna point out is, I don’t understand why whenever whoever change their r status to single, especially if that one is a girl, people will say ‘be strong, girl.’ It makes me feel like they thought us girls are too weak to whatever. blak~
Come back to me, yea I found that I’m just Gemini. I get bored with my current job and I don’t even full one month there at that moment. I hate to do the same thing everyday. Repeat and repeat like I’m a working machine. It’s so hard to be patient to some kids. And since I started working, I fell sick three times. I can’t do thing without passion, it will kill me.
I want meat! Time to do my regular blood test and doctor asked if I could cut off eating meat. I nodded without second thought. Well life without meat is…… ok, I have oatmeal without sugar as my breakfast (feel like chewing candle), vegetable with little rice as lunch in my work place (which I told them I don’t want any single meat), back home have dinner, which mummy always makes it mild. I miss burger.
Chinese New Year is coming soon. The festival which I hate the most.
I think my life is just stupd now. I hate driving. I hate to wake up early in the morning. I hate to do the same thing every day. I don't like the way I'm living now. It's damn tired. No time for my own. Ok, I can just quit and lie down on my bed,uuhmmm... But dignity don't allow. They will laugh me, I don't wanna hear a word about me, 'She is so soft and never work before, she can't stand it one la.' or 'I've said, she will quit.' or... Damn it. So I stay before I get another job or get an offer letter from uni... Zzzzzzzz...