I have so much to say, but I don’t know where to start and what to start with.. There are plenty of thoughts on my mind now.. Like I don’t have a clue about the life I choose..
Recently, I found my ‘talent’, what I mean is, I can do it well without any difficulty.. My brother first found it out, he told me, I am gifted in it, why don’t I head for it? I was wonder, how much can I ‘do’ with it? Will my talent give this world anything? Yes, I love it, I enjoy doing it, I got passion to it, but, can’t it just be an interest? I really love it…
Frankly, I love science too, but I am a bit, well, almost tend to things about earth and environment.. I am not really interested in engineering.. I choose to do it, just because I can do more with it..
Well, I have about 11 months to do the final decision.. Though I know there will always have another small track for me, whenever I think it’s time to change my direction.. I’ll always have chances.. And so do you..
My life afterward, will I have another mate by my side? The real one.. Like, they always say, well mostly just joking, ‘find a rich man and marry him and live happily ever after..’ hahaha.. If my boy is rich, what can he give me instead of money? Will he behave like ‘money is everything’ then working is more important than me? Then soon after we will have quarreled over some silly things then get divorced? What if he’s having affair? If I have a husband, my world is no more belong to me alone, and, if I have a child, will I sacrifice my time for him? Oh.. Marriage is terrible..
I did a silly thing before, and maybe that’s why my beloved one always leaves me? When he wanted to keep me by his side, I’ll scare and run away, I even said, ‘you chase, I run.’ And, another he said, ‘ You promised me to give me your world.’ I replied, ‘no, I’ll never say it, I think is ‘I give you my word, not world.’ At that moment, he must be frustrated.. What the stupid things I have done.. I am a super idiot in love.. Some say this is the so-called Gemini behavior.. haha
I don’t know.. Luckily, life has no take two…