Some words for Elayne..

Elayne,

Don’t panic. I know the exam is coming soon, but you really don’t have to be so nervous. Remember, it’s just an exam. A test for your memory work. It’s about how much effort you have put in. And I know your 3-minutes-memory will not help much in your exam, so good luck. Even if the result is not good and you might fail (heard that last year there was a senior who always got almost full marks in her every test and was the 4flat-to-be student of the school, surprisingly got 1B in the final result.) See, the ending is out of anyone’s control.

So now, you must finish all the syllabus before entering the exam hall. Remember what you have studied, don’t even forget one, ok? (I know it’s hard, your 3-ninutes-memory is sucks!)

Anyway, jia you! And believe in miracles,haha!

Please..
I'm the one who control myself.
I'm the one who control my mind.
I'm the one who control my emotion.
I'm the one who control my way.
I'm the one who control my strength.
I'm the one who control my faith.
I'm the one who control my life,
success or failure, I am the one take the full responsibility of my own life.

A pocketful of sunshine..

Ok, I’ve made a decision for myself. No more hesitation. I’m not going to give up engineering. Environmental engineering and hydrology will be my major. And, yup, you all never know it, I’ll do English literature as a minor if it’s allowed. Yup, I’m just greedy, I would like to take both. Well, there is no harm.

My plan afterward:

1. Prepare for SAT, TOEFL (if my stpm result is not satisfied) and IELTS and at the same time, train my writing skill, as I’m going to take part in the international writing competitions as many as I can. As you can see, achievement is very important for me, well, it is just a need for application.

2. Rebuild my personality, train my interpersonal skill and EQ. 20 means, no more a little girl.

3. Be brave, strong, confident and optimism.

4. Keep learning.

Yea there is still so much to list but these are just what I can think of so far.

Just give me your support, can? ^^

错觉

很沉重。我明明已经放下你了，这是错觉吧？一定是的。
这一切都是错觉，我没有去马六甲，我没有认识到一个叫赖荣胜的男生，更没有喜欢上他。一切都是错觉。
都不是真的。那那段日子，我到底在干什么？
很沉重。心里有种‘还没结束’的感觉。但很明显，我在自欺欺人。。。

给荣胜 2

我觉得自己不能再这样了 。这样下去是没有结果的。根本就是在浪费时间。

记得吗？第一次你问我，远距离，我介意吗？为什么不找比较靠近的？傻瓜，我怎知道？如果不是你，我应该还在快乐的单身日子，心里还有着过去的牵挂，有空时就为朋友分担感情的问题。这样还不错。可是，你，出现了。

你问我，之后我们都出外念书，会不会喜欢上另外一个人？我会不会都一直喜欢着你？这个问题，对我来说，太早，也太突然。我犹豫了，那是因为我真的不知道，而我也不想说谎。我告诉你，我喜欢跟着感觉走，但那并不表示我会随便就喜欢上一个人。我的姐妹雯雯，知道我跟你在一起，她知道以我的性格，我们是不适合的。所以，那天，我想了很久，才鼓起勇气提出分手，但，那一刻，我的心很痛，我很怕你会答应我，thanks god u didn’t，你跟我说，你不喜欢交往像在玩游戏一样，你喜欢就这样一直走下去。听了这番话，我很感动。但那次之后，我们似乎就一直闹分手。我朋友告诉我，一个人是不会ask something for no reason的，他们和她们，都觉得，我该放手了，你不是真的喜欢我，或者你已经不喜欢我了。但你呢？你从来都不解释。十九岁的生日很难忘，你一定不知道，我是边哭着边接受朋友的祝福。我不知道为什么自己会这么伤心。

其实，也许放手是对的，如果爱是束缚，那会让我想逃。但我很喜欢你，and that’s the conflict。以后的日子，我们会各走各的，还是一样远距离。然后，自己依然会重视achievement and freedom。也许哪天玩累了，想回‘家’。我的家，会在你那里吗？

也许很多事都很难确定，但我想告诉你，一旦我真心的爱上一个人，我不会再看其他男生一眼。

我不是不专一，只是觉得专一太傻，虽然自己已当傻瓜当了近五年。

以后的事，谁知道?

人总要向前看，祝福我吧 ！

赖荣胜，I love you.. started from 15/2/2009~……….

你，能感觉到吗？我不找你，但，真的很想念你~

To god: 如果你们给了我什么，然后又要带走，那谢谢你们的好意，我心领了。

转过身，戴上面具，微微笑，继续做个理智的我。。。

Not again..

Today, Mr.Yung told us a real story. It’s about talent that you are born to be. I was just… Well, I’m sure you know what I’m going to say…

To be or not to be, that’s the question…

Choose to be the way you’re born to be OR

Choose to be the way you’re just wanted to be OR

BOTH?

If it’s all about chooses…

Can I take both?

See… How greedy I am~

给荣胜

可不可以不要喜欢上其他女孩子？

可不可以不要交女朋友？

可不可以等我们都放下彼此的过去，再重新开始？

Idiot, 这是什么要求嘛？！

算了，反正你也不会看到。。

说好了不会再打扰你的生活。。

我想，失去，是最完美的结局～

P/S: 有个傻瓜在失去了某个人好久以后，才发现自己真的爱上他了，no joke..

以前是这样，现在也是这样，总是反应慢半拍～

然后她会告诉你：‘我没办法给他快乐，所以看着他快乐，那就够了。’

然后，等着下一个出现。但她永远都没办法把感情放在第一位，不是不重视，而是，不敢。