我很努力的控制自己，不让自己被感觉牵着走。
我向上帝祈祷，如果真的有缘，再给我们一次机会，在很久的以后。到时，我想重新认识你。
你说的每一句话，我都相信。而你不说话时，我明白，你不想伤害我。
星座说，狮子与双子是其中一组天生一对的组合。
心理测验说，我们会一直分分合合，要有耐心才会有结果。（这个根本就可以用在大部分人身上）
然后，我的思绪开始打结了。不去想，也许不能解决问题，但至少能让自己好过一些。
我讨厌这样的自己。这么的不果断，这么的不潇洒，这么的软弱。
会没事的。随着考试结束，假期开始，我会让自己很忙很忙，但会忙得很开心。
CC，很想和你回槟城，很想整个假期都留在那里，但我妈咪不给，而我想，逃避，是没用的。
我没事。会没事的。
你不在的时候，我会好好爱自己～
我站在一旁看着现在的自己，
我问她：
‘你没事吧？’
‘没事。’
‘真的？’
‘你很吵，leave me alone!’
‘。。。。。你中毒了。’
‘。。。。。。’
我不明白，为什么明明很伤心，但自己却还能笑得这么大声，也许只有在没人的时候，那个伤心的自己才会流露出来。
吃薯条的时候会想起他，吃快熟面的时候也会想起他，因为他不让我吃，有次还因为这样而生我的气，因为我不听话。但之后，我真的不再碰那些食物了。吃药的时候也会想起他，因为每次他没问，自己就真的忘了吃药。很想念他每次都叫我要听话，笑着说我像小孩子一样。（那是在暗示我很傻吗？）
四天前跟他的一小段对话，那是最后一次吗？
‘会记得我吗？就算我们已经越离越远了。记得我好吗？’
‘我很忙’（他每次都说他很忙，然后很不巧的，他其实刚考完试。）
‘。。。’（忘了我说什么）
‘luv u’（我知道你在骗我，但谢谢）
‘我也很爱你，但之后我不会再打扰你了。’
‘不要’
‘我喜欢上别人了，但我忘不了你’（如果你够聪明，你会明白这只是借口）
‘。。。。。’
‘。。。。。。’
‘so love is juz a game? U can play it and quit whenever u wan?’
‘yup’
‘。。。。。。’
‘。。。。。。’
‘不玩了！小鬼要认认真真的生活！’
‘好！ 大鬼 支持你！’
‘。。。。。。’
Elayne,
Don’t panic. I know the exam is coming soon, but you really don’t have to be so nervous. Remember, it’s just an exam. A test for your memory work. It’s about how much effort you have put in. And I know your 3-minutes-memory will not help much in your exam, so good luck. Even if the result is not good and you might fail (heard that last year there was a senior who always got almost full marks in her every test and was the 4flat-to-be student of the school, surprisingly got 1B in the final result.) See, the ending is out of anyone’s control.
So now, you must finish all the syllabus before entering the exam hall. Remember what you have studied, don’t even forget one, ok? (I know it’s hard, your 3-ninutes-memory is sucks!)
Anyway, jia you! And believe in miracles,haha!
Ok, I’ve made a decision for myself. No more hesitation. I’m not going to give up engineering. Environmental engineering and hydrology will be my major. And, yup, you all never know it, I’ll do English literature as a minor if it’s allowed. Yup, I’m just greedy, I would like to take both. Well, there is no harm.
My plan afterward:
1. Prepare for SAT, TOEFL (if my stpm result is not satisfied) and IELTS and at the same time, train my writing skill, as I’m going to take part in the international writing competitions as many as I can. As you can see, achievement is very important for me, well, it is just a need for application.
2. Rebuild my personality, train my interpersonal skill and EQ. 20 means, no more a little girl.
3. Be brave, strong, confident and optimism.
4. Keep learning.
Yea there is still so much to list but these are just what I can think of so far.
Just give me your support, can? ^^