''When one door of happiness closes, another opens; 
but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.''


Yea,this is the fact. Maybe I gaze too long at the closed door, but at the moment, I can't see any new door around, or maybe I refuse to do so?


Keep walking... 

All I wanna say is
久违了，elayne,welcome back~

Peace of mind

I feel good.

I'd like to thank Hui San, she made me feel like I should learn something which I never know how to do---LET GO. Yea,I should learn it,should try it. In our life,there are too many things to handle. LET GO, LET anything that's not belong to you GO and let it be. And I really love this friend. She is one of them whom I cherish the most.

I've done what I can do. I show my feeling, I didn't hide anything. No matter what there is no misunderstanding there. Can you image how desperate I am when saying so.

Then only I know when you are free from anything that's unclear, you are FREE.


I set myself free.
And it feels good.

Your life,you control.

how do good girls turn materialistic??

probably when they don't trust love anymore~

how do good girls gone bad??

probably when they don't trust love anymore~

how do girls turn back and become who they were used to be??
probably when they don't trust love anymore~

emmmmmmmmmmmm~

why???

So what if you are not..................................................................
I have a good life now.
I have my own time now,I own it,fully.
I have some friends,some,but just good,I love them.
I don't have much now,but I'm just fine.
I love it.

I hate big city,tall building,big road... I don't enjoy hustle and bustle life.

I hate it when a big car or motorbike passes me by,with stupid gas and sound it produces.

I hate it when I have to stuck in the very period while walking is even faster.

I hate it when people have to live in fears everyday.

There is still so much to say.

I love small town.

I love to walk on a narrow lane,with beautiful unknown flowers around.

I love to cycle to wherever as there are reachable.

I love to sit in a small cafe where is always quiet even if there is crowded.

Yes,we can stand,sit,walk,talk;behave gracefully as there is nothing to rush of.

I wish I will spend most of my time in such place,one day coming,which is very soon.

耐心看完每一个朋友的blog,体会他们的心情，是一种尊重。

刚才看了一个朋友的，有感触。从前的我们已经不在了。是长大了吧。

从前属于我们的到最后什么都没有，会让人有什么样的感受呢？无法形容。

刚才删掉了我为他写的blog，代表着开心收在心里（但很少会开心），不开心就写在沙子上，然后被风吹散，不管怎样不开心不该留在我这里。

我们都长大了。

如果
我把手中不属于我的牌让出去
会不会好受一些？

如果
我没拥有任何东西
就不会担心失去

说真的
我在担心什么？

有没有什么
日子还是照过啊

people come and people go
这个道理我该懂啊

那我又是为了什么不开心呢？？

我想要一个安稳的睡眠
没有噩梦或怪梦的睡眠
没有恐惧的睡眠
很难吗？

不记得多久没睡好了
自中三起就这样了

我好想要拥有一个安稳的睡眠啊

很难吗？

3 things i can't live without:

健康
智慧
价值感

其实我很困惑。

原来，还是没得到的东西最有价值。

这就是人性～

‘你凭什么要人家对你好？’

对啊，我凭什么要人家对我好？

退一步，

会看清很多东西。

再退远一点，

或许就能看见之前所看不见的~

清醒的我是挺无情的，

所以这几年的迷糊有得有失。

如何游走在两者之间，

我还不能拿捏得很好。

尝试中。

wisdom~

我在想，
是不是不能太主动？
但对我而言，很多事情不主动就会失去。
像，我觉得你很有意思，想和你交个朋友，但那不表示我喜欢你，idiot~
或者，我想要得到某样东西，就自己努力去得到，但不表示我会不折手段。
而那种因为你的主动而被吓跑的人或事物，我只能说：‘hey,they are not good enough for you~”

我试过，
让自己躲在一个角落，不为自己创造任何机会，那种感觉很糟，
怎么形容呢～
对了，就像到你嘴边的鸡腿被哥哥弟弟抢走，还名正言顺的说这是为你好。

不好意思，太渴望吃炸鸡了～

如果我有个健康的身体，多好啊～
不用这不能吃那不能吃，也不必担心突然又晕倒了～

健康的人是幸福的，它比任何东西还要有价值～

guys～

i just come back from hospital~

thanks all the nurses who did take good care of me the whole night.

thanks doctor,you gave me so many injections even you knew i scare pain~

thanks others who helped me to do many scannings and praised my beautiful hair and childish look~

thanks my brothers and parents~i must have frightened you all especially my mum(coz i faint in front of her) and acc me the whole night even if i told her i forced her to go back home.and thanks my dad you drove so fast that i thought we just stay beside pantai.

actually doc asked me and wrote me a letter to check in malacca to make sure my brain function well.

uuuuuuurrrrrgggggghhhhhhhh~i'm not going~

i will live well from now on~

^^

i just............wondering.................if............

deep inside,do i accept it?

if i could stop imaging any possibilities and blank myself, just for a while...

真正让我心灰意冷的原因是:

一个一天二十四小时都在忙的人,竟然可以use up his phone credit,

很明显的,他在撒谎~

而那个晚上,我在靠近kampar的一个小镇,跟一群不认识的朋友,说着我听不懂的广东话,

一个我很陌生的地方,冷了这个心;

而让我下定决心的事情,是凌晨了,我的朋友一回到家,就打来问到家了吗~

这个叫'关心', ok~

我知道,他没有.

我老婆一直说,到了那里,找个有车的男友,让他照顾我,我哥也这么说过.

其实,朋友们,有你们在,我觉得很幸福~有没有男友,真的不是这么重要.

至少,你们对我的好,是无条件的.

p/s:老婆~我很感激哦~everything~

life is still good

no matter what happened around............

let it go

let it be

then i still who i am~